This morning during my devotional time I was reading about redemption. I know and understand this in my head I am redeemed, but do I know it in my heart do I believe it in my soul. There was and is a feeling of unworthiness. I was over whelmed by feelings of being totally undesirable, unwanted, and unworthy. I know this not to be true, but I feel that way all the same. I know that that is not healthy. So coming across this I prayed to God and as for a deeper understanding.

I saw this while praying. A leather sack full of gold coins coming down while a round platform was lifting up. The Lord was telling me this; I came down as the payment. I saw you and pulled you up out of the world and gave you life eternal. I chose you and I love you. You are mine.

I was reminded of my current memory verse Romans 8:12 Therefore, brethren, we are debtors-not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. After finding much comfort in verse 18. I found that the verses 12-17 to be comforting and useful for memorization because they dealt with one of the issues I needed dealing with in my life. My flesh.

The hinge of the wisdom for me in this verse is we are debtors-not to the flesh. I realized something that I already knew. I had been going slowly inside of me I had red it before in scripture and I have read it in Brothers Lawrence’s Practicing the presence of God.

We are debtors to God he paid our ransom he bought out of sin. We owe our flesh nothing but we owe him every thing. He love for us is real and pure. It is deeper and wiser than we could ever begin to know or understand fully.

I know this is basic Christianity 101 but, the difference is that it more than just a head knowledge now it also a heart knowledge.